“I know, O LORD, that a man’s life is not his own;
it is not for man to direct his steps.”
- Jeremiah 10:23

Some call it a “leap”, but there is a foundation established in the word of God that grants assurance instead of doubt or fear when it comes to faith. God’s word testifies to his everlasting and never-failing faithfulness.  He has and will always deliver on his promises.  They’re not ambiguous or abstract. They’re real and alive and openly displayed within his Word.  What a great joy this foundation is, - especially on the brink of fatherhood.

So many things rattle through your brain at a time of change, but the largest and most ever-present realities are those of my entire lack of control - of Bri’s health, Caleb’s health, and Caleb’s ultimate salvation.  I want to be able to cradle and protect and nurture each of those desperate cares.  And yet, it is such a time that forces such a wild and complete reliance upon the God of all.  The verse at the top of this post has been one of the defining verses of my life.  It was the hand-holding comfort on my trip to Israel.  It was my assurance on the path of courting and moving and marrying Briana.  It has been my desperate hope in the times of deafening pain.

A man’s life - a little new baby’s life - is not his own.  It is fully and completely within the hands of the praise-worthy, faithful, wise, passionately loving God.  What an amazing hope.