“Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance.” (James 1:2)

From the heart of me I pray that these words do not fall  without great impact.  I want them to hit me like an icy rain in the midst of a great storm, stinging me from slumber or distraction.

I am such a foolish man!  How often I have read this and how truly I fail to believe it.  I cry in unbelief.  I struggle in my struggle and fall within my mind.  Why can only hindsight find me praising!  Why can the countless times my King has built me convince this wicked heart.  I toil and toil.  I yearn and yearn.  But I come back to the same road and am found wanting.

What a treacherous road this is, the one of unbelief.  What a shattered heart it finds or rather creates.