I struggle to think of the fact that my faith in the unseen seems less real than that of the visible.  I can completely acknowledge the truths of the scripture, those confirmed by my own experience, and yet fail in my following through.  I can profess with my lips the sweet truths but do little to act them out with my hands and feet.  Why?  I am bewildered at times.  I struggle with sin and such a struggle surely seperates me from a spiritual mind.  Is that it?  Maybe.  I am unsure.  I know that If i had but a moments glance at heaven I would be thrust unending into obedience.  Yet without such a glance I am not? I do not understand.

How is it that faith, my own, can depend so fully upon actual understanding?  Why must I fully understand / contemplate / visualize something to act on it the way I should.  Can I not act upon the unseen yet completely confident truths?  This is my struggle.  Albiet confusing.

I want so much to come to the place where seeing or understanding pales in comparison to the truth I know and feel and experience.  I want my overflowing obedience to stem from the truth while I am here on earth.  This is my prayer in such a confusing time.  Enablement to live with a faith that isn’t dependent upon seeing or understanding, but dependent upon truth.